My blog is about Gods grace and about finding treasures in the darkness. It's about growing in my faith when it's hard and the darkness wants to consume me. We found out that our grandbabies Jayden and Brooklyn were diagnosed with a rare genetic disorder called Sanfilippo Syndrome and will possibly only live a short life. It's about our hope in God, finding him faithful and being amazed by grace.

Saturday, January 17, 2015

What are you looking for?

I was just minding my own business when out of the blue my husband stood behind me interrupting my thoughts.

"Look what I found" he chided, dangling in front of my eyes, a bracelet, not just bracelet though a diamond bracelet.  A diamond bracelet that i had lost about a year or more ago.

 I remembered the day I lost it.  I had glanced down at my wrist horrified at the realization that it was gone.  I began searching every nook and cranny I could think of.  Then I realized, I had been gone some of the day enjoying some retail therapy (but that's for another day kind of confessional).  

Who knows where i lost it. Seriously I couldn't believe it! 

My heart sunk down into the abyss.  I tried hard to forget about it.  But instead my thoughts wouldn't leave me alone.    All I could feel now was sick to my stomach.  

I even wondered about the person who found it and wondered how they felt with my bracelet on their wrist.  I wanted them to get sick or get the plague or something.  I wanted them to feel bad and be nauseous and not sleep at night like me.  

My vengeful self had seeped to the surface. 

I stood in disbelief for a few minutes.  Was he really holding the same bracelet I had lost.  Could it be?  Like, did he tackle someone who had the same bracelet as I.  Because I know that he would!  I know that he would!!

My thoughts began to spin in my head.  Oops I hoped he hadn't hurt anyone.  Oh no, now I feel really bad.  But he promised he hadn't. 

He finally admitted that he had found it in my car under the seat.  It had been there well over a year or more.  Some how in my searching I never thought to look there.

I guess it really wasn't lost at all.  No one had found it and no one had lbeen wearing it.  I just didn't see it.  

The funny thing is, it had been there all the time.  All those months of anxiety and searching.  It was really in a safe place. 

Now I needed to back pedal and apologize to that made up person I was blaming.  

 I think that about God sometimes.  I wonder where He is.  I don't see him or hear him speak.  He seems silent.  Some how it feels as if He's hiding. 

 It's like He's under the car seat just waiting for me to look there.

I can't say I always understand Gods timing or His purpose in our lives.  But He reminds me again that He's residing right here.  He never gives up or hides himself from us. 

Sometimes though we have to open our eyes and look.  Thats all He's asking.  Look and see and you will find me when you do. 

Ken wasn't looking for my bracelet when he found it.  He was actually looking for his key remote.  

Isn't that how God works!  

We find ourselves looking for something else and we find Jesus.  Isn't that the amazing thing about grace.  Grace is always there.  

Grace resides in His presence. 

Bring me there.  Grace is always available!  

1 Chronicles 16:11
11 Search for the Lord and for his strength;
    continually seek him.

Matthew 7:8
 For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.

Maybe what I'm learning is........

If we look for good, we'll find goodness.  If we look for hope we become hopeful.  If we look for joy we become joyful and if we look for grace we find Jesus.

So the next time you lose something, I pray you find abundantly more than you could ever ask or think! 
And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. 

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