my new normal

I started writing in this blog over 2 years ago.  It has been a place for soul searching I think.  A place to rest a  few thoughts that I've been pondering on. 

I wonder at times at God's provisions.  These past few years are not what I would have expected or thought would be my life or my normal.   For instance, I would never have thought that a trip to Children's Memorial would be a normal part of my life.  Well, it is.  It's no longer a challenge.  It's become routine.  Our new normal.  A lot of things I must say have become a new kind of normal. 

My new normal is enjoying Jayden's giggles and grins.  It's watching him jump and jive around the family room enjoying an episode of Bob the Builder.  Watching Brooklyn enjoy singing and dancing to Barney.  Brooklyn calling me on my phone and chatting away for about 10 minutes.  If  I was having a bad day before that phone call, well I wouldn't after that conversation..  That's the joys of having grandchildren. Watching and enjoying Lucy and hearing her ask her GG if she would like her to wipe her butt for her!   She made me laugh till I cried!

Sanfilipppo may have tried to break us and to steal our joy.  God says I have a different plan for you Joan,  are you open to hearing from me?   Surrender your pain, your sadness your struggle, all your stuff, your every day.   I will use it for good in your life.  It will now be your new normal.  So, yes my new normal is finding my days filled with wiping dirty faces, changing dirty diapers, filling juice cups, searching the cupboards for fun fruits and chips.  Picking up lots and lots of toys.  Maybe it's not an exciting life to some, but it couldn't be more fullfulling!  Living and appreciating each day that God gives.   I want God to be happy that He gave life to someone who loves, loves the gift!   My new normal.  Thats the gift!  Thank you Jesus!